First, yesterday I attended my second interview with my psychologist… And it honestly felt good. She could tell that I actually am better than I was back in March when I first saw her, just from my looks. She told me I looked leaner and my face was brighter. I could only confirm what she said, it’s all so different now that I managed to get my feelings out and let close people know what I was going through. We spent almost an hour talking, and she agreed to see me one more time this summer and we’ll see if things still are going well.
Second, today I made a HUGE accomplishment. So now that my classes are over I stay at home in the mornings and I’m alone most days. That is a huge trigger for me, because when I’m alone I am very likely to binge. I’ve been capable of controlling what I eat the last few days, but always ended up indulging (no biggie, it still means a lot to me to be able to eat fairly right). But this morning I felt like I needed to do it. I wanted to stuff my face with some junk my mum bought yesterday. I even grabbed a cookie packet, with the intention to eat it all. And you know what? As I walked out the kitchen, I thought: “why am I doing this? I don’t even want to eat now, this is totally unnecessary”. I turned around and put the cookies back where they were.
I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF MYSELF!!